Maybe I’m on the path

This week I missed a lot of meditations, and when meditating I’d feel no energy, no desire, and just wait for the time to be up. Many meditations were also while driving or walking, few of those ever being good for me.

The brightest spots came listening to early Rose lectures at work. Best was a recording of his The Path lecture. It seems like I’m understanding what he’s trying to point at better than three years ago. This feeling doesn’t come with a sense I’m definitely right, in fact it has a lot of doubt, e.g. how could it be that simple – I thought this was mysticism, where’s the un-understandable transcendence? I know I could be way off, but maybe I’m right.
Also on Monday I want to Ben’s PSI meeting and one question in the vein of what do you know for sure led me to sense I need the mind to stop to see myself.

I did pass on movie watching and restaurant going but worked very late two days and spent my weekend with family, so lost any prioritization effect. With family, I did spend time with kids following advice to become like a little child. After no weekend meditations, I felt a desire for a good meditation on my trip home, but didn’t stop and wait for it to possibly happen.

This coming week, I’d like to continue to manage my influences and allow inspiration and clarity to carry over into most meditating.